i had a dream i was in a hotel my girl close friend came and i hang with her everyday in real life. it was day time and she always talks about wanting to cuddle and hints at me for it but i deny cus i feel like she’s awkward when it comes to cuddling and would quickly make it about sexual connection or think im into her, like we don’t even hug goodbye which is strange considering i hug all of my friends goodbye. which im not i try to make it obvious. practically, she ends up hopping on the bed and this is us a year or so later, and finally cuddles and hugs me from behind, and big spoons me and i get happy. and hold her back because im happy we’re finally touching. and then we start talking and just chillen and laughing like we always do. then she ends up on top of me kissing me and pins me down cus she kinda aggressive in person too cus she’s a sporty girl. and then gets into like a dominate position so i let her etc. practically, the night off, she leaves and im really happy rest of the day this time hanging out with my mom only for my mom to tell me that my friend Mo has died, he is a boy and im a girl and it made me super sad cus i started reflecting and was sad that i wouldn’t be able to get publix sub sandwiches with him anymore or just hangout and talk so that made me sad. and that he had died apperently a few doors down from the same hotel room i was in earlier, that his water in his body had drained out and left at this point and he was just laying there in the hotel bed and i had a conflict of emotions wanting to go see him, but also scared to see his dead body etc. super scary things i mean, this is one of my closest friends were talking about here. mo is muslim, as am i muslim, eva is my female friend at the beginning of the dream that kissed me. eva is atheist. she has kissed a girl once before only. i am bisexual. but i also don’t partake in that same sex stuff because it is a sin and i am in a committed relationship of a year long, with my boyfriend sammy. who i don’t have sex with but i still touch consistently. why did mo die? why did she kiss me? do i have feelings for her? what’s going on?
Dreams can be highly symbolic and personal, often reflecting our thoughts, feelings, and conflicts in waking life. Let's break down some of the key elements of your dream and their potential meanings:
Hotel Setting: A hotel often symbolizes a temporary phase or transition in life. It may represent a place where you are staying while exploring different aspects of yourself or your relationships.
Cuddling with Eva: The act of cuddling and your feelings of happiness can indicate a desire for closeness or intimacy. It seems there’s a level of comfort and connection with Eva that you wish to explore but may feel restrained by social boundaries or your own interpretations of those boundaries. Her hints about cuddling might reflect unexpressed feelings or desires for a deeper connection.
Conflict with Sexuality: Your thoughts on the potential sexual nature of cuddling with Eva might indicate inner conflicts about your identity, feelings, or the implications of those relationships. It’s important to reflect on whether these feelings are purely platonic or if there are deeper romantic feelings for her.
Mo's Death: The sudden shift in the dream after Eva leaves to the news of Mo's death is significant. This could symbolize a sense of loss in your life or fears of losing connections with those you care about. It might also represent a fear of change, mortality, or the impermanence of relationships.
Emotional Conflict: Your mixed emotions about wanting to see Mo but feeling scared to confront death might reflect inner fears regarding loss or unresolved feelings about friendships. The setting of a hotel room might also suggest that the relationship with Mo was significant but temporary, much like hotel stays.
Feelings and Relationships: Your questioning about whether you have feelings for Eva points to an exploration of your romantic desires and boundaries. Dreaming about physical intimacy with someone other than your partner may evoke questions about your current relationship or your feelings toward Eva and possibly your relationship with Sammy as well.
Overall, your dream seems to be a reflection of your relationships, desires for closeness, and the complexities of navigating friendship, intimacy, and loss. It may be beneficial to explore these feelings further in your waking life. Engaging in open conversations with your loved ones about boundaries, desires, and the meaning of your relationships could provide clarity and help you navigate these complex emotions.